I've got that Friday feeling, I've had a few glasses of vino. I've finished my book; its amazing, that writer is so talented. I'd like to see that made into a film.
My bike is still in the shop, it will be next wednesday before its ready, that's so annoying as I want to be on it now.
Had a good debate in work today about statesmen/ politicians versus ideology with James and Johanne. I am really lucky that I work with some great people.
Ashley has had to be very patient with me tonight, he downloaded a manga film but I wanted to finish my book. We watched The IT Crowd, I love moss, he's such a great character.
Bought Maya's birthday present today, can't tell you what it is as then it wouldn't be a surprise.
Our twirly black leather chair has broken (NAT)!!!! It's a shame as it cant be repaired. Daisy has been tetchy tonight, she's been jumping off the hottub lid into our Neighbours garden and barking furiously at the cats and neighbours. She is due a bath and a haircut this weekend.
I'm sooooooo looking forward to the weekend, relaxing, spending time with my family, painting. Heaven
Friday, 23 July 2010
Thursday, 22 July 2010
Nearly Weekend
My mind is thrashed today, I feel like my brain is being turned inside out at the moment trying to think clearly. I've done a full day's work with clients and at the same time tried to look at how we can get £6000 together before the end of the month. It's a very hard task. What I am finding out is that there are some lovely warm people in this world who are interested, interesting and want the best to happen for everyone.
This afternoon has been odd in my office at work, there has been a tense atmosphere which hasn't been pleasant at all. We have a big meeting in the morning, all the management committee are coming along with all volunteers and paid staff. Maybe we will get some cake!!?
We are going to the cinema tonight to see Inception, should be good.
This afternoon has been odd in my office at work, there has been a tense atmosphere which hasn't been pleasant at all. We have a big meeting in the morning, all the management committee are coming along with all volunteers and paid staff. Maybe we will get some cake!!?
We are going to the cinema tonight to see Inception, should be good.
Wednesday, 21 July 2010
Good News Wednesday
Its been a good news today as we have heard that our funding has been successful, I have a job and for that I am trully happy. I'm drinking Champagne right now with my hubby to celebrate.
My bike is still at the shop being mended. I think I shall ring them tomorrow to check in in case they have forgotten all about it.
I have been looking into setting up a Co-operative today so that we can see about how we can get £6000 together. Not an easy prospect in such a small amount of time.
I want to paint. I have 2 uncompleted paintings that need my attention. I need to dedicate some time to them and get them finished. I put a painting on Etsy today, I dont know whether it will sell but nothing ventured nothing gained. I am itching to create and must do so soon before I start to feel complacancy creep in
Had a Buddhist discussion meeting at my home tonight, 11 people came from Manchester, Colne, Nelson, Clitheroe, Grindleton, Burnley, Blackburn and Accrington. We had a great chant together, the acoustics in my conservatory are great for chanting. We then discussed how is it possible to persevere with joy. There were many different perspectives discussed and people's experiences. There was a wonderful quality of light tonight causing the conservatory to be cast in a golden light, it was a really great meeting with lovely company.
2 more days until the weekend. I'm going to ring round a few agencies tomorrow for advice on the funds available to us. A busy day lies ahead. I will enjoy my champers then settle down to sleep ready for another day.
My bike is still at the shop being mended. I think I shall ring them tomorrow to check in in case they have forgotten all about it.
I have been looking into setting up a Co-operative today so that we can see about how we can get £6000 together. Not an easy prospect in such a small amount of time.
I want to paint. I have 2 uncompleted paintings that need my attention. I need to dedicate some time to them and get them finished. I put a painting on Etsy today, I dont know whether it will sell but nothing ventured nothing gained. I am itching to create and must do so soon before I start to feel complacancy creep in
Had a Buddhist discussion meeting at my home tonight, 11 people came from Manchester, Colne, Nelson, Clitheroe, Grindleton, Burnley, Blackburn and Accrington. We had a great chant together, the acoustics in my conservatory are great for chanting. We then discussed how is it possible to persevere with joy. There were many different perspectives discussed and people's experiences. There was a wonderful quality of light tonight causing the conservatory to be cast in a golden light, it was a really great meeting with lovely company.
2 more days until the weekend. I'm going to ring round a few agencies tomorrow for advice on the funds available to us. A busy day lies ahead. I will enjoy my champers then settle down to sleep ready for another day.
Tuesday, 20 July 2010
Tuesday Tuesday
It's Tuesday today did you guess. Today has been a day of strange experiences. We still havn't had any word about funding which is causing a strange kind of frenzied tension in the office. This frension as I shall now call it swallows up one's ability to concentrate and causes one's nerves to be on edge so the slightest movement makes you jump.
I got talking in Tesco after work with an upset and agitated lady for 50mins which meant I was very late home. I then a rush to make tea and get out to the meeting about our Art Co-op thingy. I had another pint of liquid strawberry ice cream tasting beer, Fruli which is so gorgeous it should be banned. We have had another good chat and now we need to get our skates on as we need to know how we are going to finance £6000 in the year to come. A lot of work needs to be done me thinks.
Ashley is still off colour, he has had to work late again and is probably in bed right now working when he should be resting. Nat has been writing letters today to try and get a summer job. All good things.
I got talking in Tesco after work with an upset and agitated lady for 50mins which meant I was very late home. I then a rush to make tea and get out to the meeting about our Art Co-op thingy. I had another pint of liquid strawberry ice cream tasting beer, Fruli which is so gorgeous it should be banned. We have had another good chat and now we need to get our skates on as we need to know how we are going to finance £6000 in the year to come. A lot of work needs to be done me thinks.
Ashley is still off colour, he has had to work late again and is probably in bed right now working when he should be resting. Nat has been writing letters today to try and get a summer job. All good things.
Monday, 19 July 2010
The next H P Lovecraft
The Angel's Game by Carlos Ruiz Zafon
I sensed the days were passing because there were times when I awoke and thought I could see sunlight coming through the slats in the shutters. Once or twice I was sure I heard someone knocking on the door and voices calling my name, but after a while they stopped. Hours or days later I got up and put my hands on my face and found blood on my lips. I don't know whether I went outside or whether I dreamed that I did, but without knowing how I had got there I found myself making my way up Paseo del Borne, towards the cathedral of Santa Maria del Mar. The streets were deserted beneath a mercury moon. I looked up and thought I saw the ghost of a huge black storm spreading its wings over the city. A gust of white light split the skies and a mantle woven with raindrops cascaded down like a shower of glass daggers. A moment before the first drop touched the ground, time came to a standstill and hundreds of thousands of tears of light were suspended in the air like specks of dust. I knew that someone or something was walking behind me and I could feel its breath on the nape of my neck, cold and filled with the stench of rotting flesh and fire. I could feel its fingers, long and pointed, hovering over my skin, and at that moment the young girl who only lived in the picture I held against my chest seemed to approach through the curtain of rain. She took me by the hand and pulled me, leading me back to the tower house, away from the icy presence that had crept along behind me. When I recovered consciousness, the seven days had passed.
My new book is amazing, it has made the last 2 books seem worthwhile as they have led me inadvertently towards this one.
Tonight has been interesting. My mum has spoken to an old neighbour who was a good friend of my grandma's in the late 1940's in Devon. She still remembers my grandma as the little lady, she was only 4ft 7. The old lady had said that all the women had it really tough back in those days, we can't imagine what life would have been like pre welfare benefits, NHS and young children to care for. My mum is really pleased to speak to this lady and I am really happy for her.
I met my estranged uncle again today which is still a little unusual. Ashley is feeling unwell which I am not happy about, he will pick up and bounce back to perfect health. We've been sat at the dining room table for most of the evening, him working, me reading and the pair of us cuddling up. The house was so peaceful which is lovely but I still prefer to hear the sound of children and people.
I want to paint a portrait of Nat as he is now, to capture this part of his adolescence. It wont be long before he leaves home and becomes his own person but for the shortest time he remains my boy. I want an image that I can look at in years to come and see as a time capsule. Nat has always looked outwards, which is not a criticm, he's always looked further than me. He wont be a homebody wanting to stay living close to me, he will want to forge his own way. I can see this and I'm happy that I've brought up this strong independant person. I still remember and cherish the time when he was younger when I couldn't see where I began and Nathaniel ended.
My lovely neice Maya has been in a performance tonight at the Blue Elephant Theatre in London. She will have been brilliant and will have lots of treasured memories of tonight. I need to get some photo's printed of Maya and us, she has a family album and there are no pictures of me in there which I am not happy about and which I mean to rectify asap.
My kitty cats are in trouble, they are getting fed roast chicken by one of my mum's neighbour's. Apparently Nemo ate 3 bowl fulls the other day, and Emo goes for the food occasionally. At lease Farni is faithfull to me and does not stray from the back garden and Daisy of course but that's because she annoys the neighbours by constant barking at flies, leaves and swirls of air.
Going now, nighty night peeps
I sensed the days were passing because there were times when I awoke and thought I could see sunlight coming through the slats in the shutters. Once or twice I was sure I heard someone knocking on the door and voices calling my name, but after a while they stopped. Hours or days later I got up and put my hands on my face and found blood on my lips. I don't know whether I went outside or whether I dreamed that I did, but without knowing how I had got there I found myself making my way up Paseo del Borne, towards the cathedral of Santa Maria del Mar. The streets were deserted beneath a mercury moon. I looked up and thought I saw the ghost of a huge black storm spreading its wings over the city. A gust of white light split the skies and a mantle woven with raindrops cascaded down like a shower of glass daggers. A moment before the first drop touched the ground, time came to a standstill and hundreds of thousands of tears of light were suspended in the air like specks of dust. I knew that someone or something was walking behind me and I could feel its breath on the nape of my neck, cold and filled with the stench of rotting flesh and fire. I could feel its fingers, long and pointed, hovering over my skin, and at that moment the young girl who only lived in the picture I held against my chest seemed to approach through the curtain of rain. She took me by the hand and pulled me, leading me back to the tower house, away from the icy presence that had crept along behind me. When I recovered consciousness, the seven days had passed.
My new book is amazing, it has made the last 2 books seem worthwhile as they have led me inadvertently towards this one.
Tonight has been interesting. My mum has spoken to an old neighbour who was a good friend of my grandma's in the late 1940's in Devon. She still remembers my grandma as the little lady, she was only 4ft 7. The old lady had said that all the women had it really tough back in those days, we can't imagine what life would have been like pre welfare benefits, NHS and young children to care for. My mum is really pleased to speak to this lady and I am really happy for her.
I met my estranged uncle again today which is still a little unusual. Ashley is feeling unwell which I am not happy about, he will pick up and bounce back to perfect health. We've been sat at the dining room table for most of the evening, him working, me reading and the pair of us cuddling up. The house was so peaceful which is lovely but I still prefer to hear the sound of children and people.
I want to paint a portrait of Nat as he is now, to capture this part of his adolescence. It wont be long before he leaves home and becomes his own person but for the shortest time he remains my boy. I want an image that I can look at in years to come and see as a time capsule. Nat has always looked outwards, which is not a criticm, he's always looked further than me. He wont be a homebody wanting to stay living close to me, he will want to forge his own way. I can see this and I'm happy that I've brought up this strong independant person. I still remember and cherish the time when he was younger when I couldn't see where I began and Nathaniel ended.
My lovely neice Maya has been in a performance tonight at the Blue Elephant Theatre in London. She will have been brilliant and will have lots of treasured memories of tonight. I need to get some photo's printed of Maya and us, she has a family album and there are no pictures of me in there which I am not happy about and which I mean to rectify asap.
My kitty cats are in trouble, they are getting fed roast chicken by one of my mum's neighbour's. Apparently Nemo ate 3 bowl fulls the other day, and Emo goes for the food occasionally. At lease Farni is faithfull to me and does not stray from the back garden and Daisy of course but that's because she annoys the neighbours by constant barking at flies, leaves and swirls of air.
Going now, nighty night peeps
Catch Up
Hello fellow cyberspacers,
Don't worry I haven't had blogger's block, I've just been too darn busy to blog. My entire day has been filled with things being done or planned.
Our meetings about the arts co-op are gaining momentum, we've had another look at a venue which looks just right for what we need. We had another meeting last week and we are now getting ready to have prints done of our work to sell immediately.
I have registered to become a matron which means I look after children during performances or other such activities.
I've been cycling to work and back which has been lovely. Each morning I see little rabbits, domestic and wild animals. The views are lovely; I am becoming more and more entranced with it. I seem to have damaged a nerve in my hand through holding the handlebars incorrectly. My ring and little finger are numb and my right hand doesn't have a lot of strength. I've had to take the bike back to the shop AGAIN!!! The left peddle has fallen off again, so they are now replacing both pedals and the accoutrements. Hopefully that will be the last time I have to go back with this problem.
I've read 2 books in a week, they were both rubbish, The Lucifer Code and Mistress of Rome. I don't know what I was thinking in getting these. I bought a book that I wanted in Sense, Elephant and Castle, The Angel Game by Carlos Ruiz Zafon. I really think this writer is very good and will be seen as a great writer in years to come.
Went to London on Thursday, stayed with the lovely Nancy and Maya. Got on the wrong train in Preston, there were 2 trains to London both setting off within 6 minutes of each other. The conductor was very rude but was probably very frustrated as so many others had caught the wrong train too, including another girl who had wanted to get off in Wigan; the train had no scheduled stops so she had to travel to London, then back to Wigan.
Friday was spent being a tourist. I don't usually do the tourist things but I decided to today. Went to the National Portrait Gallery, to see the BP award paintings. There was a portrait approx 10 foot high of a little boy. The blurb by the artist stated that his son wanted to be painted as being big, it made me cry as the expression of wonder on the boy's face reminded me so much of Nat when he was a little boy.
Don't worry I haven't had blogger's block, I've just been too darn busy to blog. My entire day has been filled with things being done or planned.
Our meetings about the arts co-op are gaining momentum, we've had another look at a venue which looks just right for what we need. We had another meeting last week and we are now getting ready to have prints done of our work to sell immediately.
I have registered to become a matron which means I look after children during performances or other such activities.
I've been cycling to work and back which has been lovely. Each morning I see little rabbits, domestic and wild animals. The views are lovely; I am becoming more and more entranced with it. I seem to have damaged a nerve in my hand through holding the handlebars incorrectly. My ring and little finger are numb and my right hand doesn't have a lot of strength. I've had to take the bike back to the shop AGAIN!!! The left peddle has fallen off again, so they are now replacing both pedals and the accoutrements. Hopefully that will be the last time I have to go back with this problem.
I've read 2 books in a week, they were both rubbish, The Lucifer Code and Mistress of Rome. I don't know what I was thinking in getting these. I bought a book that I wanted in Sense, Elephant and Castle, The Angel Game by Carlos Ruiz Zafon. I really think this writer is very good and will be seen as a great writer in years to come.
Went to London on Thursday, stayed with the lovely Nancy and Maya. Got on the wrong train in Preston, there were 2 trains to London both setting off within 6 minutes of each other. The conductor was very rude but was probably very frustrated as so many others had caught the wrong train too, including another girl who had wanted to get off in Wigan; the train had no scheduled stops so she had to travel to London, then back to Wigan.
Friday was spent being a tourist. I don't usually do the tourist things but I decided to today. Went to the National Portrait Gallery, to see the BP award paintings. There was a portrait approx 10 foot high of a little boy. The blurb by the artist stated that his son wanted to be painted as being big, it made me cry as the expression of wonder on the boy's face reminded me so much of Nat when he was a little boy.
Le Grand Natan by Daniel Enkaoua
After the gallery I went down the mall to see what all the fuss is about with tourists and royalty bla, bla, bla. Whilst walking down the mall I was struck by the enormous buildings looking very grand and imposing. The sculptures all down the sides give the image of strength and power. I had the realisation then that all these people from all around the world are drawn to this place because of the strength and power that it represents. The royalty are there to caretake this image which I think is a huge responsibility that I wouldn't like to have. I saw the changing of the guards which was all pomp and ceremony which pleased all the tourists clambering with their digital cameras to film the spectacle. I then walked all around the circumference of Buckingham Palace, at the back where the barracks are the net curtains were torn, the windows were dirty with used bowls of cereal in front of the windows. I wonder if the Chateau of Versailles looks like that around the back.
On Friday evening We went to the South London SGI centre for Chapter Study, my second this month. It was interesting to hear the same study from another perspective. Saturday daytime was spent waiting for Maya to finish her dance classes. We then went to a fun day at Livity School. Went to an Affordable Art Show which was a great place and great weather. I will have to see if they have the same idea for shows in Manchester. We went then to Lambeth Country Show, bands playing, girls dancing wearing not very many clothes, people relaxing. Kids wearing colours joined in a tribe tearing through the crowds of people wide eyed and up to no good. Saw some lovely jewelry which was well out of my price range. Got a Chinese then watched 3 episodes of Battlestar Gallactica. Sunday we visited the Oxo Tower Gallery and shops, saw prints of album covers by Storm Thorgerson. There were some iconic images there! Met a very friendly lady in a jewelry shop. It had the most amazing filigree leaf pendants, they were so pretty and I know I would wear them lots.
We then had another wander into temple and went to the Crypt of St Clement Danes Church. Then it was time to come home. My train journey was bizarre as I was sat around so many American accents. I sat opposite two very beautiful and haughty sisters who spoke in a mixture of English with American accent and Hebrew, they had spent the weekend having a spend in London and every bag they had was blazoned with a designer logo. Me being me was not fazed at all and got one of the girls to go to the cafeteria for me and get me a free plastic cup, she didn't appear to be in the habit of fetching and carrying for someone and didn't appear very happy but she did it anyway. Later she was very sweet with me and was interested in the book I was reading. I really cannot abide arrogance or haughtiness. No-one is better than anyone else, no matter where you think you are or aspire to be in the hierarchy of wealth and social status you will only ever be at eye level with me!!!!!!!!!!
That said I shall go to work.
Bye bye earthlings
Tuesday, 6 July 2010
How much to do in small pockets of time
Its Monday evening at 11.30pm and I now have time to do my blog. Busy evening, busy days.
I cycled to work Thursday and Friday, I loved it, the weather was great, I had a dragonfly flying at the same speed as myself along the canal at one point, we were having a race but she (brown) gave up and turned into a field. I was even in a bike convoy at one point and another time the pedal fell off my back which was not fun and I was massively annoyed. Cath and Vicky came round on Thursday with my mum. I love them so much and so proud they are my family.
It was the birthday party for my mother and Tibor on Friday night, another BBQ and good company.
Saturday was mostly spent looking for a holiday and painting. My sister in law and neice came round for a brew and a catch up, its been months since we have seen each other. Did a water colour of a site at Heys Allottments, I think we were the talk of the gardeners. Cycled to Foxhill Bank, I had a lovely spot in mind to do another painting but a family came with a mountain of bread to feed the birds so I didn't get chance. I felt like I wanted to ask them to move but didn't have the heart to ask the little girl who looked like she was having a great time. I did some great bug paintings later, I ended up staying up till 3 am in a friendzy, ie looking for old friends on facebook. It was very silly and I should have known better.
Had Kozen Rufu at home on Sunday morning, the lovely Kerry and Sam came, John came with his angry head on. Did some more paintings, the weather was not great so stayed in even though I wanted to go out on my bike again. Mimi came round in the morning and spent the day with us. Emma, Nat's squeeze came round after Dinner. Emma, Mimi and I formed the sisterhood and ganged up on Nat which he pretended to hate but secretly loved. I really couldn't be bothered to cook so we had chinese takeout, chicken and sweetcorn soup for me.
We booked our jollidays, 2 weeks in Bugarach, near Carcasonne. Its very remote and near the Pyrenees. My mum and Charlotte are coming to so the kids will have a great time. As its so remote they can go and have an explore. We get there at the time of their Fete, looking forward to dancing in the streets. Going to take my paints and do lots of lovely scenes of the hills.
Went to see a lady called Ellie today who works for prospects to discuss setting up artist studio's/ a gallery with a venture they are currently looking to set up. It means that the artists will be able to be seen and there will be more shoppers around who would be able to afford to pay for the work. Went for a lovely lunch at The Sanctuary in Lango after.
Very freaky incident occured in the afternoon, a client with a disctinctive surname turned out to be my uncle. How bizarre!! This also means that my father knows where I am and may pop in and see me. This is a bridge I may have to cross.
Mum came round tonight, a) to do a passport form and b) to book flights for the jollidays. Nat was in a foul mood tonight, he walked around with his very own thundercloud hovering above his head with lightening bolts firing into his head. I don't know what possesses me when he is in this mood, I feel the strongest urge to poke him and tease him, I find this hilarious but he doesn't share the joke and looks at me in a very patronising way telling me to shut up.
Amelia has been testing my psychological profile tonight, apparently I'm 50% drama queen and 70% mediator, and 65% human ......
Tomorrow is the meeting for the Civic Arts Centre and Wednesday is a discussion meeting at Sam's. Thursday I may be able to sit still and rest. I am going to cycle for the rest of the week. I may need waterproofs.
I cycled to work Thursday and Friday, I loved it, the weather was great, I had a dragonfly flying at the same speed as myself along the canal at one point, we were having a race but she (brown) gave up and turned into a field. I was even in a bike convoy at one point and another time the pedal fell off my back which was not fun and I was massively annoyed. Cath and Vicky came round on Thursday with my mum. I love them so much and so proud they are my family.
It was the birthday party for my mother and Tibor on Friday night, another BBQ and good company.
Saturday was mostly spent looking for a holiday and painting. My sister in law and neice came round for a brew and a catch up, its been months since we have seen each other. Did a water colour of a site at Heys Allottments, I think we were the talk of the gardeners. Cycled to Foxhill Bank, I had a lovely spot in mind to do another painting but a family came with a mountain of bread to feed the birds so I didn't get chance. I felt like I wanted to ask them to move but didn't have the heart to ask the little girl who looked like she was having a great time. I did some great bug paintings later, I ended up staying up till 3 am in a friendzy, ie looking for old friends on facebook. It was very silly and I should have known better.
Had Kozen Rufu at home on Sunday morning, the lovely Kerry and Sam came, John came with his angry head on. Did some more paintings, the weather was not great so stayed in even though I wanted to go out on my bike again. Mimi came round in the morning and spent the day with us. Emma, Nat's squeeze came round after Dinner. Emma, Mimi and I formed the sisterhood and ganged up on Nat which he pretended to hate but secretly loved. I really couldn't be bothered to cook so we had chinese takeout, chicken and sweetcorn soup for me.
We booked our jollidays, 2 weeks in Bugarach, near Carcasonne. Its very remote and near the Pyrenees. My mum and Charlotte are coming to so the kids will have a great time. As its so remote they can go and have an explore. We get there at the time of their Fete, looking forward to dancing in the streets. Going to take my paints and do lots of lovely scenes of the hills.
Went to see a lady called Ellie today who works for prospects to discuss setting up artist studio's/ a gallery with a venture they are currently looking to set up. It means that the artists will be able to be seen and there will be more shoppers around who would be able to afford to pay for the work. Went for a lovely lunch at The Sanctuary in Lango after.
Very freaky incident occured in the afternoon, a client with a disctinctive surname turned out to be my uncle. How bizarre!! This also means that my father knows where I am and may pop in and see me. This is a bridge I may have to cross.
Mum came round tonight, a) to do a passport form and b) to book flights for the jollidays. Nat was in a foul mood tonight, he walked around with his very own thundercloud hovering above his head with lightening bolts firing into his head. I don't know what possesses me when he is in this mood, I feel the strongest urge to poke him and tease him, I find this hilarious but he doesn't share the joke and looks at me in a very patronising way telling me to shut up.
Amelia has been testing my psychological profile tonight, apparently I'm 50% drama queen and 70% mediator, and 65% human ......
Tomorrow is the meeting for the Civic Arts Centre and Wednesday is a discussion meeting at Sam's. Thursday I may be able to sit still and rest. I am going to cycle for the rest of the week. I may need waterproofs.
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